Loss, life & motherhood
I just want to be okay. Like really okay, not sometimes okay or nearly okay. Actually okay. I want to mean it when I say that I am. I want this weight to lift from chest. I don’t want to feel it being crushed every second of the day. I want to breathe. Deeply and… Continue reading I guess I’m just not okay.
Now its been a little over a year since we recieved Noah's post mortem results and up until I just haven't had the words to write about it. So let me recap a little. We waited 9 months. Yes 9 long and very difficult months until we discovered what was behind our sons death. In… Continue reading Discovering the reason
A couple of weeks ago someone reached out to me and asked for some tips on surviving pregnancy after loss and I honestly had no idea what to say. I had obviously survived pregnancy after loss my 6 month old was proof of that, but how? I do not know, honestly I don't. It was… Continue reading Surviving pregnancy after loss
I don't often talk about the miscarriage I had before I fell pregnant with Noah, in fact before Noah died I didn't talk about it at all, I couldn't. I still find it harder to talk about, harder than talking about Noah, for some reason there seems to be more stigma attached to miscarriage, than… Continue reading The M word
Searching for the light 